Ok so I'm not one for throwing myself a
pity party, but grab your hats, party on. I am at the point I don't know how much more I can endure... In the last year I have had to deal with more than most in a lifetime. I feel I have coped
relatively well, and was starting to resolve within myself our reality and see light at the end of this tunnel.
Saturday I was sleeping in, Friday I was not feeling well and had been to the Dr, so I was getting some much needed sleep. Jason comes running into the room and tells me to get up
Avangeline is smiling and laughing. Praise the lord, what a joy. I have been waiting a long time for that smile. We were on a high all weekend long.
Monday... I get to work and go about my day normal, all except for opening my e-mail. When I
realized I had not checked it I opened it to find a note from the head of
HSBC North American CEO, in short it stated that Consumer Lending (that's who I work for) was being shut down.
Ok if that
doesn't suck enough, all of the sales staff was let go
effective 1:00 pm. They get paid till April 3 and then get a
severance package. I am not sales staff... So I get to work
until they
decide what day exactly we will shut down. We have to give our customers 30 days notice, and I do not have a sign to hang on the door as of yet. So this is going to drag out... I could really use 30 days off with pay. Somehow sitting in that office empty and with all the looming
dume SUCKS. Top that off with customers who are worried about how they are going to make there payments, mail them in... No
brainer, but explaining that to them is an ordeal.
You know how you have this plan in your head of how life is suppose to go, hopes, dreams, expectations... Why can't I have at least one??? Have I done something so
terrible in my life that I deserve all of this? Will it ever end??? Will I come out better on the other side, or will this be how things go forever???